Thursday, October 06, 2011
Mid terms are over whee! And I screwed up both zzz uni in Singapore is so stressful, if only it was like uk where they put emphasis on the later years and less on the first few. anyway speaking about uk, I wanted to blog when yuensin flew, but I can't cos I need to prepare for mid terms><
Yay I managed to catch yuensin online this morning! Was so excited cause I just wanted to on my computer to do my assignment and I was in luck(: yuensin is fine though it's a bit cold in there. Talking online isn't as bad as I thought, but there's still the distance fact that's nagging at me, like I can't reach over and give a pat and stuff like that ><
While I was at the airport, me and Evelyn went to talk to her mum. All along yuensin told me how her mum was feeling, and in a sense I could roughly understand because we come from similar background and our mums are so similar. I wanted to tell yuensin that I dont mind finding her mum once in a while when she's in uk. Then I suddenly realized that if I am willing to do that for someone's mum, why can't I do that for my own mum? I ended up not telling ys, cos I want to treat my mum better first before I do that. There's just so much things in life that we take for granted. I guess we all need time to realize that, but hopefully by then, it won't be too late already.
Just like our health. That day when we went airport, Evelyn was really sick too. And my cough wasn't getting any better even after seeing 4 times of doctor after 1 month plus. Then don't why, maybe Evelyn said something, I had that realization that it's time for me to stop being complacent About my health. From the healthy body that my parents gave me, it's now filled with problems and I still don't really listen to my parents' constant nagging. Staying in hall makes me sleep later and later, where my normal timing is 2am plus. It's really bad )): and weiying told me it's probably cos of my humid room too. Just went to uhc and he said it's probably cos people in hall are coughing and the disease spread. But everyone like recover already, I'm like the sole 'survivor'>< he said my situation is common in ns where the disease spread in the bunk, something called microplasm I think.
He's really a good doctor very friendly and sincere, I even just heard someone on the shuttle bus saying that he's good lol! For the first time since a long time, I'm optimistic about recovering after eating the medicine that he gave me, instead of just eating and thinking that I will still never recover. One's attitude towards others really make such a difference, which is why we must treat everyone as best as we can. And of course I must sleep earlier Liao, now that mid terms are over fortunately. I used to be proud that I seldom fall sick, but recent years are no longer the same. Maybe my lack of sleep really makes a greater difference than I thought. I must get back to my seldom sick mode!!
Anyway, when we sent ys off at the airport, i thought didn't feel anything at all because it was like another time meeting her and I would see her after a few days. We sang 'if we hold on together'(: like the song(:
Then the moment she went in the gate, I started feeling all the emotions swelling up in me. 孤独的背影要到一个从来没去过的遥远地方, 身上背负的是众多希望。
让我想起了鲁迅的＜一件小事＞的那个背影。看着一个人的背影能有着很多感触。可能是因为当事人看不到，所以你可以把视线停留在她身上久一些，让思绪一点一点地涌上。
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I decided to avoid the crowd so I left hall at 10pm to go home. When I just boarded the bus, I suddenly thought of those days when I mug until damn late in school, and go home at like 11plus. I'm suddenly quite excited that I'm going to repeat that kind of feeling again now lol. Because I'm taking 151 again and by the time I reach hc it will be 11! And the bus is always crowded then although it's damn late because uni students are crazy work until so late then go home one. And now the bus is also rather packed considering its 10.30 now.
I miss hc )): I'm glad that I'm still taking the same bus even when I enter uni, so that I can travel down that familiar route again after 6 years. And see the school that I love, although it's a bit unrecognizable after all that mrt construction.
Can I fly over the rainbow like the bluebirds?
10/06/2011 05:58:00 PM
